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complicated and right now in the summer sun, junior is a source of joy. Click. Now nothing, not age, not trouble, not vicissitudes, not dope, not long hair. Nothing no thing can take that moment away from grandma. Change. And she doesn't care if any one else wants to appreciate junior or correct him at all.

April 30.72

June 26.72

"Everybody who is creative does harm to something."

"In the morning we think differently than in the evening. When I come to a difficulty I wait until tomorrow. I can wait to as an insect can wait."

Igor Stravinsky p 253 Retrospectives and Conclusions

First and most important is the disappearance of the musical mainstream. - the problem imposed by this absence is the same as the problem of man without god: irresponsibility. In the domain of the arts this is translated to the most unusable of goals, total freedom, as if the unservicability of formal laws and premises, of the techniques and systems embodied in the art of the past, invalidated the need to search for new ones. "Now will new rules arise through revolution."

Stravinsky p 103 (above)

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...I walked on in a state of raw awareness that seemed to transform the whole of my being into one big eyeball rolling in the world's socket.

Nabokov's Quartet p 75

from the Vane Sisters

upon reaching the porch I looked with apprehension of solitude at the two kinds of darkness in the two rows of windows: the darkness of absence and the darkness of sleep.

p 88 "

The holy men of India. Psychology and Religion. Jung Vol 11

...one sees so much in India that in the end one only wishes one could see less: the enormous variety of countries and human beings creates a longing for complete simplicity. This simplicity is there too: it pervades the spiritual life of India like a pleasant fragrance or a melody. It is everywhere the same; never monotonous unendingly varied.

par 952 - p 577

To be satisfied with the "necessities" is no doubt an inestimable source of happiness, yet the inner man continues to raise his claim, and this can be satisfied by no outward possessions. And the less this voice is heard in the chase after the brilliant things of the world, the more the inner man becomes the source of inexplicable misfortune and uncomprehended unhappiness in the midst of living conditions whose outcome was expected to be entirely different. The