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loves, approaching to kiss instinctively shut their eyes before their faces can be reduced to anatomical data

Instructive it may be to peer through lenses: each time we do, though, we should apologize to the remote on the small for intruding upon their quiddities

The camera records visual facts: i.e., all may be fictions

Flash-backs falsify the past: they forget the remembering present

On the screen we can only witness human behavior Choice is for camera crews

The camera may do justice to laughter, but must degrade sorrow.

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In Arnold and Anita's new house there was a glassed paneled section above a wide doorway they wanted removed. As Arnold seemed to shrink from the physical, I attacked it on a step ladder with his inadequate tools: A screwdriver, chisel, hammer. It is very satisfying to tear something down. How nice to have a direct easy goal. You apply your body energy, concentrated on a single object. Piece by piece it yields its form, breaking down its wholeness. You strike and the wood shudders and splinters noisily. How seldom do you receive an instant reward for your actions. The direct desire and effect. No complicated gray areas, just black and white, yes and no. The muscles revel in it to build something takes planning and measuring and carefulness. It takes mind. But one does not have to be careful in destroying. You unleash force and matter succumbs. The closer to completion the more feigned the application. Like when the lock on the long sought buried treasure box is about to yield to your hammer. It has the minded completeness of sexual intercourse. Do you hack away, prying up the many layered moldings, admiring in cliched fashion, the way things were built better in those days? At a certain moment you know you have