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I want. Except be a spy. I've captured people who've since died and people will never look that way again ... I'm clever ... I don't mean I can match wits with people 'cuz I can't. But I can figure myself into a situation. I choose photography projects that are somehow Mata Harish. I'll not risk my life but I'll risk my reputation or my virtue - but I don't have much left." and she laughed. "Everyone suffers from the limitation of being only one person."

p 279 I can't believe that money is any proper award for art. Art seems to me something you do because it makes you feel good to do it; it excites you or you learn something from it; it's like your play, your education ... but I've never felt in a funny way ... I don't even feel [what I do] is terrible useful. It might be historical. It's embarrassing.

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I can't defend this position, but I think I take photographs because there are things that nobody would see unless I photographed them. When I was gloomy I thought others could take the photographs I wanted to take. You know, I could call up some good photographer and say, 'Why don't you photograph this and this?' I really think my photographs aren't very useful except to me. I think I have a slight corner on something about the quality of things ...

p 303 "I was born way up the ladder of middle-class respectability and I've been clambering down as fast as I could ever sense."

p 304 "[as a photographer] there are two feelings in you. One is you really want to get closer [to the image]. The other thing is that you've got some edge ... you're carrying some